Some Things Last A Long Time

Emily and I met in college. We both attended the University of Houston – Clear Lake. We shared a few classes together before we actually met. For an entire semester, she existed in my mind as the beautiful girl who always did better than me in the classes we shared, stealing all the professor’s praise, […]

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Living Between Both Sides

It is strange to write about myself. I would much rather write about Emily, but I have been asked how I am doing, and it is easier to be honest on here than anywhere else. So, in the spirit of honesty: I’m not doing well. I haven’t been for a while. And I won’t be […]

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Two in One

There is an unspoken rule about how we are supposed to mark time. The longer the duration, the fewer instances you are allowed to celebrate it. When a relationship is new, it is perfectly acceptable and even charming to celebrate your one-week anniversary. And two weeks. Once you hit a month, however, that’s it. There […]

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Good Bret Hunting

When I was a senior in high school, the movie “Good Will Hunting” was released. It is one of my all-time favorites that I have watched countless times. If you are unfamiliar with it, here is a quick summary: Will Hunting (Matt Damon) has a genius-level IQ but chooses to work as a janitor at […]

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For Auld Lang Syne, My Dear

This was Emily’s favorite time of year. I suppose she wasn’t unique in that, but her enthusiasm for the holidays was unlike anything I had ever seen. Typically, there are two kinds of joy on display at Christmas: the joy of children, lost in the wonder and excitement created for them, and the joy of […]

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4&6

Today is mine and Emily’s four year wedding anniversary. It is also six months ago today that she made her exit from this part of existence. I’ve been trying to write something to mark the occasion. There are no good words, however, for such an anomaly as this. I have plenty to say, but nothing […]

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This Road

Over the course of the last four months, I have processed my grief on this blog. I have done my best to keep the focus on Emily as much as possible, but the ever-present reality is that she isn’t here anymore; at least not in the same way she was before. My grief, your grief, […]

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Crushed

Some time in the midst of junior high, I noticed something amazing: girls. From that moment on, I chose to spend most of my time with them. I still had a handful of guy friends, but it was clear to me that girls were smarter, funnier and prettier, so the decision was an easy one […]

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Two Months

Today marks two months. In terms of significant anniversaries, it’s not. There are three groups of people who keep track of two-month anniversaries: teenagers in love, people trying to maintain sobriety and those who have lost someone they love. During the last two months, I have done my best to lean toward the positive, to […]

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Our Last Dance

Over the last month I have spent most of my time focused on celebrating Emily’s remarkable life. Certainly, her battle against cancer was part of that, but I have purposely set my mind on all of the other things that were incredible about Emily before this terrible disease became a part of our life. Today, […]

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