I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want no world (for beautiful you are […]

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Some Things Last A Long Time

Emily and I met in college. We both attended the University of Houston – Clear Lake. We shared a few classes together before we actually met. For an entire semester, she existed in my mind as the beautiful girl who always did better than me in the classes we shared, stealing all the professor’s praise, […]

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Living Between Both Sides

It is strange to write about myself. I would much rather write about Emily, but I have been asked how I am doing, and it is easier to be honest on here than anywhere else. So, in the spirit of honesty: I’m not doing well. I haven’t been for a while. And I won’t be […]

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Two in One

There is an unspoken rule about how we are supposed to mark time. The longer the duration, the fewer instances you are allowed to celebrate it. When a relationship is new, it is perfectly acceptable and even charming to celebrate your one-week anniversary. And two weeks. Once you hit a month, however, that’s it. There […]

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Good Bret Hunting

When I was a senior in high school, the movie “Good Will Hunting” was released. It is one of my all-time favorites that I have watched countless times. If you are unfamiliar with it, here is a quick summary: Will Hunting (Matt Damon) has a genius-level IQ but chooses to work as a janitor at […]

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525,600

It has been one year. It has been one hell of a year. Upon reaching any milestone in life, people love to tell you about how things are going to change for you. I remember my high school teachers being borderline giddy when telling all of us that we were in for a rude awakening […]

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For Auld Lang Syne, My Dear

This was Emily’s favorite time of year. I suppose she wasn’t unique in that, but her enthusiasm for the holidays was unlike anything I had ever seen. Typically, there are two kinds of joy on display at Christmas: the joy of children, lost in the wonder and excitement created for them, and the joy of […]

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4&6

Today is mine and Emily’s four year wedding anniversary. It is also six months ago today that she made her exit from this part of existence. I’ve been trying to write something to mark the occasion. There are no good words, however, for such an anomaly as this. I have plenty to say, but nothing […]

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On Love and Loving On

On Love It is a regular occurrence that people make comments about the love Emily and I shared for one another. It has always been this way. People said it before cancer, they said it during cancer, and I hear it regularly now that she is gone. I often think about that love and what […]

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